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Miyerkules, Setyembre 22, 2010
BITTER AKO!
3 months ago, isa akong Party Gay sa loob ng 3 years(ang gulo)! As in, walang lumipas na gabi especially wednesdays, fridays and saturdays na hindi nasasayaran ng lipgloss ang pouty kong lips. Pero nabago lahat ito 3 months ago. Bakit? May nakilala kasi akong boylet.
Sa isang bday party ng friend ko, madaming boylet. Mga lalakeng beauty queen. Hindi bading ha! Pero sila ang mga lalakeng sumasali sa mga searches, like Mr. Chuchu Chenelin, Model of the Eklavu! Mga ganun! (Gets nyo na?)
Madaming ganun nung gabing iyon. Hindi ko na maalala kung tutok ako sa guy na ito, pero naalala ko lang sinabi ko sa friend ko "teh sight mo si kuya oh, medyo dirty pero hot!". Meaning, hindi siya ang nakapukaw ng pansin ko. Meron pang iba. Pero napansin ko siya ng very light! Pero hindi siya ang outstanding para sa akin nung gabing iyon. Kasi ang mga bet ko, matured, medyo buffy ang katawan. Hindi ko alam kung sino siya, hindi ko alam ang pangalan niya. Pero ang lola niyo, pag may bet na lalake, magtatanong ako kung ano ang pangalan niya. Pero siya hindi ko inalam. Ibig sabihin, hindi ko siya type.
Bilang matagal na kaming hindi nagakasama ng friend ko na Bday celebrant ng gabing iyon. Hindi ako nagmaganda. Hindi ako umeksena pero hindi din ako nagpaka K.J. Pinakanta ako ng mga bakla. Hindi ko na angawang tumanggi! Kanta ng ALONE ang lola niyo. Hindi naman masyadong bongga pero chika na! Di na masama! After nung, BAD ROMANCE naman, kahit di ko alam ang lyrics deadma! Pinasayaw ko na lang sila! Ok naman!
After ng kanta, inuman na! Table namin katabi ng mga male beauty queens, so bilang mga polite at malalandi ding bakla, niyaya namin sila at tinagayan. ayun lang. Bilang hindi naman mapagmagandang bakla, hindi ako umeksena at umaura, dahil wala naman akong balak aurahan. Ang babata kaya nila. I don't go for younger guys kasi talaga.
Kinabukasan, eto na. Somebody added me in FB. i don't know him. I've got no idea kung sino siya. he commented on my photo. It was basically offending, pero deadma ako. You know for someone who is seen in TV , hindi ka naman pwedeng magtaray everytime sa FB. So I was polite enough to answer back. So tinignan ko ang profile niya. Ang gwapo kasi ng nasa profile picture eh. nag comment ako. AH! Siya pala ito! Nag tag kasi siya ng pictures niya from my profile nung party yesterday. So. Ok!
i don't remember na kung kailan nag start ang constant chat. Nagsimula sa chat, hanggang nag exchange numbers na. Pero my plan wasn't that for us. I mean, hindi ako madaling mahulog sa mga patibong. And he is too young for me. He is too good looking for me. I'm not the "ILUSYONADA" type of gay. Who will tell the whole world na ":hey someone is intersted on me, kasi lagi kaming nagkaka chat and nagte text". He even asked to watch him sa isang fashion show. Well, I was about to watch pero bigla naman akong nagka raket that time. hindi ko alam na kinikilig na pala ako sa kanya.
Pero, relax pa din ang byuti ko. Deadma pa din. Nagtataka ako na isang bagets, super text at chat sa lola nyo. DEADMA!
Nagsimula ang paglabas namin one time, he asked my friend to call me at ipasundo ako para mag inuman sa house nila. OK, kahit may ginagawa ako, sumama ako. friendly inuman. Wala akong paki! Wala akong balak umaura!
Nasundan ito ng pagte textan pa ulit. Labas, inuman. Hanggang naging habit ko na ang hanapin siya. Siguro natuwa ako talaga sa kanya, kasi mabait naman ang gagong 'yon. In fairness to him. He's magalang, polite, educated, and not to mention Gwapo!
I don't really chat sa FB, once I go online sa FB Chat, siguradong magha hang kasi ang daming nakikipag chat sa akin, pero go pa din ako. Naadik ako makipag chat sa kanya eh. Sarap niya kayang kausap. At dahil kasi, like ko na siya. So i get really disappointed kapag hindi ko siya nakakausap, or kapag online siya pero hindi niya ako pinapansin. I started being a FaceBook Stalker. I always look on his profile to know how he was. And it started to affect me, kapag meron siyang kausap na iba.
Pero still, ayoko namang idegrade ang sarili ko by being jealous, kasi hindi ko naman siya boyfriend. HELLO!
So ayon na nga, labas ulit, inuman. Alam niya kung paano magpakilig ng isang bakla! mahusay ang pag ganap niya mga ate!
And it stopped na lang by August. He started acting weird. He tells me something i don't really understand. Nagkekwento siya ng mga bagay na hindi ko ma take at hindi ko nagugustuhan. Pero still, bilang isang friend, hindi ko pinararamdam na malamig ako sa kanya. Pero siya ramdam na ramdam ko ang coldness. The coolness of us suddenly became coldness.
He still texts me once i a while. Ako naman sometimes call him and text him but he doesn't answer. I figured out that there is something wrong. He is busy doing his stuff. Maybe work, maybe lovelife or maybe iba pa. But still, hindi ko pinakialaman ito, kasi nakakahiya makialam.
One night, he texted me...Sobrang weird. Nagpapasundo siya somewhere. I don't know what to answer kung go ako or not. Basta ang weird. Bilang under the Monkey Sign. Madali ako nakaka takas sa mga ganoong sitwasyon. Dahil hindi ko alam kung ano ang meron, hindi mo ako agad mapapa oo. Cool lang ako. Biglang nagtext"LED BAKA MAY GAGAWIN KA". at sabi niya may susundo na sa kanya. OK! FINE WITH ME!
After that, hindi na siya nagpaparamdam. nagtext na lang siya, asking me to buy tickets for this event kung saan siya kasali. And I didn't answered back.
Saw him sa Cosmo Bachelor Bash. I'm with Tiny, nelson, john and Rodwen. When he started to ramp, I did not even looked at his face. I just heard Rodwen calling his name, but he didn't looked back or even smiled man lang. Well, siguro kinakabahan siya nakita mga friends niya watching. After the show, I was at the lobby with Nelson, having pictures taken by people i know, and some people who knows me. I saw him going outside the room, pero I turned around because I don't wanna see him. I don;t know what to say kapag lumapit siya. Kaya umiiwas na din ako. Ayokong magmukhang fan niya at baka isipin kasi niya na nanood ako ng BASH because of him, kasi hindi naman talaga.
After theshow, may sarili kaming after party ng mga bakla, naginuman kami sa Blue Wave Macapagal, ng bigla siyang nagtext. Inum daw kami. HELLO! Hindi mo nga kami pinansin, tapos eto ka nagyayakag mag inom? WEIRD! I still did'nt answered his text, instead, asked one of my friends to text him back. Hindi daw niay alam ang BlueWave kaya uuwi na lang siya.
OK!
After the inuman, go na kami sa hotel. And basta bigla na lang kaming nagkuwentuhan ng isa kong friend. I realized he is not worth my time. I mean, I can be his friend, pero other than that, wala na. Wala akong dapat ilusyonin about him. Pero natuwa ako kasi tama ang naramdaman ko. VINDICATED ako! Hindi ako ang nagumpisang umaura! Hindi ako ang nagbigay ng motibo para landiin ng isang guy. Natuwa ako dun! Promise!
Dumating na sa point na isa kong friend ang china chat niya at hindi na ako, weird talaga. i was hoping na somehow makakapag usap pa kami kahit sa FB CHAT, pero I'm waiting, hindi niya ako kinakausap. He is talking to my friend. And ganoon din siya dati sa akin.
Siguro may halong selos din, pero hindi din (ang gulo ko sorry).
I just wanna know kung bakit nga ba biglang nawala ang friendship? Well, hindi pa naman ganun kalalim ang napagsamahan namin, pero gusto ko sana maging bestfriend ko siya na guy. Kasi we have something in common. Minsan anti social din ako, I only talk to people I know. May mga trip siya na keri kong sakyan. May mga gusto siya na gusto ko din. Masarap siyang kausap. Pero ganoon lang.
Pero may isa pang bagay na hindi ko na talaga ma take. Hindi ko na lang babanggitin kung anuman ito. And I guess... This will be the end of the saga... Ang katapusan ng hindi pa man...
I just wish him happiness, success in life and career. And of course sa lovelife niya. I know may mga pinagdadaanan siya ngayon sa buhay niya. I will just pray for him.
Maraming salamat sa maikling panahon na pinakilig mo ako at marunong pa pala akong ma inlove! Bilang sobrang JADED na sa LOVE sa napakahabang panahon. Thanks for making me smile everytime I read your texts and everytime I'm talking to you personally or on the phone.
And I guess its time for me din to move on...
I also deserve to be happy...Ayoko na nang nararamdaman ko these past few days na may hinahanap ako na hindi naman sa akin. Ayokong maging selfish.
Everybody deserves to be happy...
OH WELL!
GOODLUCK...
Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld
Sa isang bday party ng friend ko, madaming boylet. Mga lalakeng beauty queen. Hindi bading ha! Pero sila ang mga lalakeng sumasali sa mga searches, like Mr. Chuchu Chenelin, Model of the Eklavu! Mga ganun! (Gets nyo na?)
Madaming ganun nung gabing iyon. Hindi ko na maalala kung tutok ako sa guy na ito, pero naalala ko lang sinabi ko sa friend ko "teh sight mo si kuya oh, medyo dirty pero hot!". Meaning, hindi siya ang nakapukaw ng pansin ko. Meron pang iba. Pero napansin ko siya ng very light! Pero hindi siya ang outstanding para sa akin nung gabing iyon. Kasi ang mga bet ko, matured, medyo buffy ang katawan. Hindi ko alam kung sino siya, hindi ko alam ang pangalan niya. Pero ang lola niyo, pag may bet na lalake, magtatanong ako kung ano ang pangalan niya. Pero siya hindi ko inalam. Ibig sabihin, hindi ko siya type.
Bilang matagal na kaming hindi nagakasama ng friend ko na Bday celebrant ng gabing iyon. Hindi ako nagmaganda. Hindi ako umeksena pero hindi din ako nagpaka K.J. Pinakanta ako ng mga bakla. Hindi ko na angawang tumanggi! Kanta ng ALONE ang lola niyo. Hindi naman masyadong bongga pero chika na! Di na masama! After nung, BAD ROMANCE naman, kahit di ko alam ang lyrics deadma! Pinasayaw ko na lang sila! Ok naman!
After ng kanta, inuman na! Table namin katabi ng mga male beauty queens, so bilang mga polite at malalandi ding bakla, niyaya namin sila at tinagayan. ayun lang. Bilang hindi naman mapagmagandang bakla, hindi ako umeksena at umaura, dahil wala naman akong balak aurahan. Ang babata kaya nila. I don't go for younger guys kasi talaga.
Kinabukasan, eto na. Somebody added me in FB. i don't know him. I've got no idea kung sino siya. he commented on my photo. It was basically offending, pero deadma ako. You know for someone who is seen in TV , hindi ka naman pwedeng magtaray everytime sa FB. So I was polite enough to answer back. So tinignan ko ang profile niya. Ang gwapo kasi ng nasa profile picture eh. nag comment ako. AH! Siya pala ito! Nag tag kasi siya ng pictures niya from my profile nung party yesterday. So. Ok!
i don't remember na kung kailan nag start ang constant chat. Nagsimula sa chat, hanggang nag exchange numbers na. Pero my plan wasn't that for us. I mean, hindi ako madaling mahulog sa mga patibong. And he is too young for me. He is too good looking for me. I'm not the "ILUSYONADA" type of gay. Who will tell the whole world na ":hey someone is intersted on me, kasi lagi kaming nagkaka chat and nagte text". He even asked to watch him sa isang fashion show. Well, I was about to watch pero bigla naman akong nagka raket that time. hindi ko alam na kinikilig na pala ako sa kanya.
Pero, relax pa din ang byuti ko. Deadma pa din. Nagtataka ako na isang bagets, super text at chat sa lola nyo. DEADMA!
Nagsimula ang paglabas namin one time, he asked my friend to call me at ipasundo ako para mag inuman sa house nila. OK, kahit may ginagawa ako, sumama ako. friendly inuman. Wala akong paki! Wala akong balak umaura!
Nasundan ito ng pagte textan pa ulit. Labas, inuman. Hanggang naging habit ko na ang hanapin siya. Siguro natuwa ako talaga sa kanya, kasi mabait naman ang gagong 'yon. In fairness to him. He's magalang, polite, educated, and not to mention Gwapo!
I don't really chat sa FB, once I go online sa FB Chat, siguradong magha hang kasi ang daming nakikipag chat sa akin, pero go pa din ako. Naadik ako makipag chat sa kanya eh. Sarap niya kayang kausap. At dahil kasi, like ko na siya. So i get really disappointed kapag hindi ko siya nakakausap, or kapag online siya pero hindi niya ako pinapansin. I started being a FaceBook Stalker. I always look on his profile to know how he was. And it started to affect me, kapag meron siyang kausap na iba.
Pero still, ayoko namang idegrade ang sarili ko by being jealous, kasi hindi ko naman siya boyfriend. HELLO!
So ayon na nga, labas ulit, inuman. Alam niya kung paano magpakilig ng isang bakla! mahusay ang pag ganap niya mga ate!
And it stopped na lang by August. He started acting weird. He tells me something i don't really understand. Nagkekwento siya ng mga bagay na hindi ko ma take at hindi ko nagugustuhan. Pero still, bilang isang friend, hindi ko pinararamdam na malamig ako sa kanya. Pero siya ramdam na ramdam ko ang coldness. The coolness of us suddenly became coldness.
He still texts me once i a while. Ako naman sometimes call him and text him but he doesn't answer. I figured out that there is something wrong. He is busy doing his stuff. Maybe work, maybe lovelife or maybe iba pa. But still, hindi ko pinakialaman ito, kasi nakakahiya makialam.
One night, he texted me...Sobrang weird. Nagpapasundo siya somewhere. I don't know what to answer kung go ako or not. Basta ang weird. Bilang under the Monkey Sign. Madali ako nakaka takas sa mga ganoong sitwasyon. Dahil hindi ko alam kung ano ang meron, hindi mo ako agad mapapa oo. Cool lang ako. Biglang nagtext"LED BAKA MAY GAGAWIN KA". at sabi niya may susundo na sa kanya. OK! FINE WITH ME!
After that, hindi na siya nagpaparamdam. nagtext na lang siya, asking me to buy tickets for this event kung saan siya kasali. And I didn't answered back.
Saw him sa Cosmo Bachelor Bash. I'm with Tiny, nelson, john and Rodwen. When he started to ramp, I did not even looked at his face. I just heard Rodwen calling his name, but he didn't looked back or even smiled man lang. Well, siguro kinakabahan siya nakita mga friends niya watching. After the show, I was at the lobby with Nelson, having pictures taken by people i know, and some people who knows me. I saw him going outside the room, pero I turned around because I don't wanna see him. I don;t know what to say kapag lumapit siya. Kaya umiiwas na din ako. Ayokong magmukhang fan niya at baka isipin kasi niya na nanood ako ng BASH because of him, kasi hindi naman talaga.
After theshow, may sarili kaming after party ng mga bakla, naginuman kami sa Blue Wave Macapagal, ng bigla siyang nagtext. Inum daw kami. HELLO! Hindi mo nga kami pinansin, tapos eto ka nagyayakag mag inom? WEIRD! I still did'nt answered his text, instead, asked one of my friends to text him back. Hindi daw niay alam ang BlueWave kaya uuwi na lang siya.
OK!
After the inuman, go na kami sa hotel. And basta bigla na lang kaming nagkuwentuhan ng isa kong friend. I realized he is not worth my time. I mean, I can be his friend, pero other than that, wala na. Wala akong dapat ilusyonin about him. Pero natuwa ako kasi tama ang naramdaman ko. VINDICATED ako! Hindi ako ang nagumpisang umaura! Hindi ako ang nagbigay ng motibo para landiin ng isang guy. Natuwa ako dun! Promise!
Dumating na sa point na isa kong friend ang china chat niya at hindi na ako, weird talaga. i was hoping na somehow makakapag usap pa kami kahit sa FB CHAT, pero I'm waiting, hindi niya ako kinakausap. He is talking to my friend. And ganoon din siya dati sa akin.
Siguro may halong selos din, pero hindi din (ang gulo ko sorry).
I just wanna know kung bakit nga ba biglang nawala ang friendship? Well, hindi pa naman ganun kalalim ang napagsamahan namin, pero gusto ko sana maging bestfriend ko siya na guy. Kasi we have something in common. Minsan anti social din ako, I only talk to people I know. May mga trip siya na keri kong sakyan. May mga gusto siya na gusto ko din. Masarap siyang kausap. Pero ganoon lang.
Pero may isa pang bagay na hindi ko na talaga ma take. Hindi ko na lang babanggitin kung anuman ito. And I guess... This will be the end of the saga... Ang katapusan ng hindi pa man...
I just wish him happiness, success in life and career. And of course sa lovelife niya. I know may mga pinagdadaanan siya ngayon sa buhay niya. I will just pray for him.
Maraming salamat sa maikling panahon na pinakilig mo ako at marunong pa pala akong ma inlove! Bilang sobrang JADED na sa LOVE sa napakahabang panahon. Thanks for making me smile everytime I read your texts and everytime I'm talking to you personally or on the phone.
And I guess its time for me din to move on...
I also deserve to be happy...Ayoko na nang nararamdaman ko these past few days na may hinahanap ako na hindi naman sa akin. Ayokong maging selfish.
Everybody deserves to be happy...
OH WELL!
GOODLUCK...
Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless handheld
Huwebes, Setyembre 16, 2010
MOVING ON
You really hurt me
I spend all my days and nights
Trying to be a good friend to you
But you really hurt me
And this time I'm movin' on
So long baby, we're through
Chorus:
So I'll be movin' on
In time you look I will be gone
'Cause when I needed you
You were never there for me
So I'll be floating in the breeze
Like a falling leaves
Don't look for me 'cause I'll be moving on
You say you love me
But the only time I know
Is when I beg and plead
Oh, you still say you love me
But the only time I hear is
When I say I'm leaving
So I
(Chorus)
All those times I tried
and all those nights I cried
Did you ever come to me
And try to dry my eyes
All those times you strayed
When you said you'd stay
Those times are gone 'cause now I'm moving on
(Chorus)
Long gone
Don't look for me 'cause I'll be moving on
I be moving on, I be moving on, be moving on
We be moving on, we be moving on
I'll be moving on, I be gone, I be moving you along
She be moving on, she be moving on
I be moving alone....
I spend all my days and nights
Trying to be a good friend to you
But you really hurt me
And this time I'm movin' on
So long baby, we're through
Chorus:
So I'll be movin' on
In time you look I will be gone
'Cause when I needed you
You were never there for me
So I'll be floating in the breeze
Like a falling leaves
Don't look for me 'cause I'll be moving on
You say you love me
But the only time I know
Is when I beg and plead
Oh, you still say you love me
But the only time I hear is
When I say I'm leaving
So I
(Chorus)
All those times I tried
and all those nights I cried
Did you ever come to me
And try to dry my eyes
All those times you strayed
When you said you'd stay
Those times are gone 'cause now I'm moving on
(Chorus)
Long gone
Don't look for me 'cause I'll be moving on
I be moving on, I be moving on, be moving on
We be moving on, we be moving on
I'll be moving on, I be gone, I be moving you along
She be moving on, she be moving on
I be moving alone....
Lunes, Setyembre 13, 2010
Martes, Setyembre 7, 2010
Are you an introvert or an extrovert?
di ko alam, baliw ako eh, minsan kapal ng fez ko, minsan mahiyain ako,
What's the secret to happiness?
di ko pa alam kung ano ang secret... kaya nga secret eh, di pa sinasabi sa akin.
If you could only listen to one song for the next month, which would it be?
nothing by janet jackson
If you could eat dinner with any person, dead or alive, who would it be and where would you go?
SI ANIK... SA LANGIT KAMI PUPUNTA!
Would you rather date a lot of different people, or be in a committed relationship?
yes! di ko sure! malandi kasi ako eh!
Lunes, Setyembre 6, 2010
INDAY WANDA
Hi everyone! It's been too long... I'm not feeling well these past few days but I'm a bit better now. Nag start na ang Inday Wanda! Bongga! Sana matutukan ninyo ang mga next na episode. Pinaghirapan po talaga ito ng Unitel Productions, ni Direk Joyce Bernal at lahat ng staff... I feel so blessed at honored to be a part of this production. This is my first acting project for TV. And so bongga pa because Eugene Domingo ba naman ang bida! Ang lupit di ba? I admire her for being a sensitive actress! Ang ganda ng mga banat niya, mapa drama or comedy. And to be with her in a scene,MAJOR!
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Linggo, Setyembre 5, 2010
Pussycat Dolls return to Viper Room with Kelly Osbourne, Carmen Electra
After world tours, a Las Vegas lounge and several spin-off reality TV series, the Pussycat Dolls returned to their humble roots Wednesday night, putting up a show at Los Angeles' Viper Room.
At the birthplace of Robin Antin's hybrid burlesque act, the Dolls closed out Bing's Sunset Strip Summer Concert Series, with special guest stars Kelly Osbourne, Mya and Carmen Electra.
Kelly's mom, Sharon Osbourne, showed up with bells on, with her son Jack, to catch her daughter get down in a sailor's outfit with several male dancers.
Pals Eva Longoria Parker and Kim Kardashian cheered from the crowd alongside ...
... actress Malin Akerman, "America's Got Talent" judges Piers Morgan and Howie Mandel, and a newly single Johnathon Schaech.
The ladies performed top-40 hits including "Don't Cha" and "Buttons" from the Pussycat Dolls pop group, fronted by Nicole Sherzinger.
Electra's return to the Dolls stage marks a significant reunion with the dancing troupe, which she parted ways with around 2003 when the band was formed.
Photo: Kelly Osbourne, Mya and Carmen Electra suit up as Pussycat Dolls.
Get more headlines on Music, and a splash of Gratuitous Beefcake and Cheesecake, from The Ministry
Huwebes, Setyembre 2, 2010
Led's Wish List from Converse.com
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